Flip Flop

I've never been good with decisions about myself, especially ones which have some impact on my future. I tend to end up in a nasty cycle of analysing all the options to death while distinctly avoiding making a choice and standing by it. This wonderful cycle is also interspersed with period of ostrich impersonations where things appear more sandy than they really are for a while.

And so I have been living the past week. To Singapore or not to Singapore, that has indeed been the question. To those not involved in the mad MBA process making such a decision should be a fairly simple process. To someone who's a bit stressed because of short term questions like what to do about a disintegrating group, and who always has the "CAREER CAREER" red light constantly blinking at the back of their head, it has proven to be anything but.

Is it worth all the extra money? Will I actually have time to travel around whilst I'm there? How will the socialising work? How do I go about finding somewhere to live. In the end I got fed up with it and just went with my heart. Pouring such an enormous sum of money into what will likely end up a couple of weekends in Bali is likely not the best use of my resources. And in terms of getting to know people, the fact that 75% of my year is en-mass decamping to Singapore means that in reality it will be pretty much the same as it has been here. Actually, I think that the 25% which stay here will likely gel a lot more as a group - just because there will be a lot fewer people here.

And so with a stroke I've removed a big part of my recent stress. Gone are the worries about accommodation. Gone are the worries about planning traveling itineraries. All I have to do now is buy an ice scraper for my car in preparation for the depths of winter.....